An Icy Grave

Last night i sat in my shower until the water was ice. Every drop felt as thought it were going to pierce my flesh, tears filled my eyes, but I refused to cry. A lonely, empty feeling starts to creep up inside me, the more I force my tears away. My heart burns as my body freezes, some where in my mind someone is telling me to get out, but whats the point? Meaning has abandoned life and hope was lost long before. The blood continues to pool at the drain, it looks as if it isolates itself from everything else in the tub. Isolated, that what I am, alone for so long and yet never alone at all. All that I have left are the voices that have brought me to this point, that have been there everyday, and that have never left me to be at peace. Suddenly I dont feel anything, not my heart burning, not my flesh freezing, not even the blade slicing my skin. The voices finally leave me and I am left alone and cold, frozen and dead in the bottom of my tub. This is were my voices says good by and takes to the sky, while I lay here in my icy grave.

~* Lady Blackthorne

My Motivation

How can you love someone with all of your heart and not be with them, how can you smile when you are alone and empty, how do you keep yourself from going insane, I must know what could possibly motivate you to get up everyday knowing your alone?

Opening my eyes to the beautiful face, even though its just a picture,The memory of that sweet smile, even if it is just a breif glimps,and the sound of your laghter, over the phone is all I need.Knowing you will always be there for me,knowing nobody could love me the way you do,and remembering the way you held me is all the motivation I need.

I could have just said I love you, but I want you to know much more than that. I want you to know i need you, I miss you, and most of all you are my only motivation.

~*Lady Blackthorne

A Promise To Live

Time is slipping away,

Lights are Fading,

and my heart is breaking more and more with every breath.

No more time to think about what has to be done,

not enough light to find my way out,

and a pain that is to intence to handle on my own.

The sweet splashing sound echos through my mind

as my blood trickles down my body,

splattering on the floor below.

Tears race down cheeks, leaving a burning sensation

to linger on my icy face.

Bloody tears leave streaks on my soul and all I see is the darkness inside of me.

My wrists are burning, the pain is tearing me apart,

but the pain that hurts the most is the pain i feel in my heart.

I wish to leave all this heartache behind,

but to that I would have to shatter the promise,

and bring a new pain with me when I die.

Just a few days ago, with so few words, I have cursedly bound myself to this

torcheress place.

I cursed myself to live through this torment when I swore my life

was yours.

Now I make my plea, if you truly love me this will be something easy for you to do.

So I leave it to you, Kill me now and grant my wish, and allowing me to keep my promise, or be tormented be waching my soul be ripped apart. If you love me why wont you save me.

~*Lady Blackthorne

You're Too Late

The blade shining in the light, blood pooled on the floor, and rose petels all around her. No one saw her pain even though it was right infront of them, no one saw her bleeding even as they watched the blood hit the floor, and no one heard her cries even though she was screaming. The pain started so long ago and had plenty of time to consume her, first it was the tears, next the cutting, and soon darkness was right outside her door. No one cought on until it was to late and no one would admit something was wrong, until she was blue in the face. Soon enough they all regretted their ignorance.

They could all see her pain, they could all hear her screams, they knew all the pain the moment they saw that beautiful girl laying cold and stiff on her beadroom floor.

~*Lady Blackthorne

Little Sister

Primpted and preaned, ready to go, only 14 and there isnt anything she doesnt know. Queen of the world princess of the day and everything has to be her way. Hissyfits and tantrums are the norm, its as if nothing has changed since she was born. but no matter how bitchy this little snobe gets i still lover my little sister to bits.

~*Lady Blackthorne

The Demons Mask

The face of and angel, the smile of a goddess, this child is perfect this child is flawless. All the world sees is her perfect mask, but one person saw her pain, one person saw her struggle, one person saw this was no angel, he alone saw the devil. Though her words are sweet and cheerful, her thoughts are dark and twisted.

In the eyes of the world she smiles, but when they are alone in her room she lets it all out. All the pain and heartache, all the frustration and anger, and all of the emptyness and lonelyness, all of it pours out onto his shoulder. He holds this fragile soul ever so gently knowing she she is feeling empty.

He knows her pain, he knows her suffering, he sees the demon in her that she tries to hide, he feels the haterid she holds deep in side, and yet all he wants is to love her. He wants her to see that its that demon in her that he loves so much, he wants her to take off that mask of a perfect child and let that demon out, and her so much wants her to see that she has nothing to prove to the world that has shunned her.

The grace of and angel the power of a goddess, consumed by hate and filled with love. finally compleate this demon has her better half with her everywere she goes someone always telling her the things she really needs to know.

He saved her from her pain and took away the suffering that only he could see, he was the only one who saw through that smile and he is the only one that can love her for who she truly is, he is her everything.

~* Lady Blackthorne

Creation

Created from fire and earth, risen from the ashes of a demon, this creature is the creation of a demon goddess herself. Born from fire and water, being a gift to a god this beautiful goddess of destruction suffered rejection. Her blackened heart was just to much for the gods and they cast her out. In revenge she made a creature, who would love her and obay her, and together these creations of hate pleaged the race most cherished to the gods.....humans. In love and in controle these creatures made the world their playground and the people their slaves.

~* Lady Blackthorne

When You are Away

When you are away I am incompleat, nothing seems right, everything seems so out of place, and I feel as if there were a hole in my soul.

When you are away I am weak, I dont have the strangth to hold my head up, I dont have the energy to fight, and I hardly have the strength to breath.

When you are away I ache,tears burn down my face, sarrow rips at my heart, my arms are empty and crave to hold you, burned by the pains of living without you.

When you are away I become nothing, you are everything to me and I am alone without you. When you are awy there is only one thing that keeps me fighting, i have the desire to be home again

~* Lady Blackthorne

Sacrifice

Alone and cold, left to die, no emotion not even the desire to cry, and no one in the world knows why!

A vail covers her face as white laces stream down her body. She is as pure as the first child of the goddess. But something about her says she is afraid, something screams in pain, but so consumed with pride this white lace angel shows nothing but her devotion to her world. Fire surrounds her as she lays still on the pyer. Chosen by the goddess at birth, this lace angel spent her sweet 16 burning for her sins before the gods and goddesses she vowed to serve. For her love was forbidden, but to her he was worth all of this.

~* Lady Blackthorne

I am

I am Lady Blackthorne, (a few people may have a problem with me using this name but they can kiss my ass cuz i have everyright to use it sence i married someone who had it.) i will not use my first name but thats because it is not important. THIS BLOG WILL BE FOR MY POEMS AND MY POEMS ONLY, please feel free to post any links or comments
~*Lady Blackthorne